Thursday, November 20, 2008

Ticked Off

I dunno what my problem is lately, I'm in a foul mood.

Today I was walking to lunch and some idiot on a bullet bike was riding in between lanes of traffic. Trying to cut through the intersection when the light was red etc.. just being an idiot. And I was so angry about it. I was walking back from lunch just thinking how much I'd like to give that idiot biker a piece of my mind. Normally my walks are a decompression time, a time where I get rid of all the thoughts floating in my head like that. But today it was really hard to just let it go. UGH! And that's just one example, I'm feeling all ticked off no matter what lately. I need a vacation or something.

I think it has a lot to do with the school situation. Not that the school adviser's screw up changed much, it just changed my perception. And my perception has really fouled up my mood. I just need to accept what has come and take it like a man. Its not like her incompetence has changed what I need to do. I need to graduate, and the requirements to do so haven't changed. It just comes down to perception and I don't know why I'm being such a baby instead of just moving on with it.

Perception. When starting up school I thought I had 3 years of 3 semesters a year and 6 credits a semester. That was never true. I thought it was, but it wasn't. I had just less than 4 years at that rate. 66 credits not 56 credits has always been the requirement, I just didn't know it. I kept telling myself, "Buckle down for 3 years, you can do this for three years." Just recently I was telling myself, "you're doing great, your halfway through, you're pulling A's. Just keep it up for another year and a half and you'll be done." After this semester I'll have done 26 credits 26/56 or 26/66. Is there really that much of a difference? 46% done to 39% done? Well I never was the 46%. I just thought I was.

When I found out the truth, I felt like a year had been stolen from me. A whole year stolen! But who took it? No one, the school requirements were always the same. No one stole a thing from me. I may have been misled, but otherwise I haven't been wronged in any way. But I still feel pissed off.

I need to get over it.


G'ma Nasus said...

You are doing well! You are trying to have a good attitude about it and that is half the battle.

Besides right now you are stressed: over-worked, baby on the way, then this big dissappointment is a big kick in the head.

So go ahead: GET MAD & blow off steam. You will feel better, you'll get over it and you will move on. It will all work out fine. Love ya!

Superwoman said...

sorry honey, I know this was a hard pill to swallow. We really are so proud of you, you are doing such a great job with such a huge load on your shoulders. I wish I could do more to help you but there just isnt much more I can to for you. I love you, hang in there, it will all be over soon and we'll look back and be glad it's done.

Just Dave said...

It is disappointing too find that you are further from your goal than you thought but, as you say, the distance hasn't changed, just your perception of it. I can understand your grouchiness, though.

Just take a deep breath and get back to work. That's the best thing, believe me. And be happy that you have that great lady in the post above this one to support you.

BigSister said...

Hey Bro! So sorry that you got "bad" news. I think you are going to same counselor as Big Grizz - a real space cadet. At least I know you will be close here for another year so I can play with your kids and come and games and bug you and Superwoman. lol

Tug said...

Sometimes you just have to let it out so you can move've got a lot going on, so it's understandable.

Hang in there, you'll get it!

groovyoldlady said...

Now, now...If you're going to make it through the remaining emesters of school, then you can't afford to be giving pieces of your mind to complete strangers, even if they are idiots and probably could use the extra brain cells!

(Did I make ya smile? Huh? Did I?)

Sushiboy said...

Smiling and moving on.